am I a missionary?
am I a designer?
am I meant to be here or there?
why do I look to things to justify my existence?
to affirm why I'm here?
maybe a job would do,
or a project,
or some clear purpose.
why isn't "child of God" enough?
why is there guilt when I'm
not "doing enough"?
not "working hard enough"?
Oh, wayward and weary soul!
Look upon Jesus!
Look upon the Father!
You can be a child again!
You can sing all you want!
You can dance freely!
Make,
create
smile,
enjoy all he's given you,
Just keep your eyes on him.
Receive it all freely.
Jesus died so that you could commune with me.
So now,
entire into the throne room of grace
with boldness and confidence.
Ask for anything you need or wish.
Because you are God's child,
and it will be done for you,
for he loves you
and desires to give you good gifts!
He loves to provide for you.
He loves to empower you
to be who he's made you to be.
He loves to give you the grace to serve
and pour your life out as a drink offering.
He loves to be with you.
Oh Jesus!
Help me receive this love beyond my understanding.
Truly, just how wide and long and high and deep
how strong that nothing can separate me from your love.
More real, more powerful than death itself.
More true than any fear or lie or words from human lips.
May your Spirit breathe into me
and help me recognize the resurrection power,
that rose Jesus from the dead,
the freedom that he purchased for me,
it all lives within me!
No formulas,
no incantations,
no amount of discipline or effort.
Oh Spirit,
help me receive your very presence.
Open my heart and mind and soul
wide wide open,
so that you wouldn't just be the centre of my life,
but its very substance.
May my hands and feet,
my eyes and ears,
my breath and lips.
my thoughts and dreams,
my longings and desires
yield to you.
Oh Spirit,
invade me and consume me.
Be the assurance I run to,
the One I cling to.
Because apart from you,
I can do nothing.
I cannot love.
I cannot serve.
I cannot be kind.
I cannot listen.
I cannot obey.
I cannot be still.
You are what I need.
Be my very breath,
my life source,
my all in all.
Be everything to me.
I admit that I desperately need you,
not just now,
but every hour I need you.
Amen to amen.
I agree with you and your words,
from the heavens to earth below.
May I carry your presence,
your name,
your nature,
wherever I go,
for I know who you are,
and I know who I am.
Let "child of God" be enough for me,
despite what my eyes can see.
Whether rich or poor,
solace or heartache,
I will rejoice and be glad.
For he has made us a kingdom of priests to God,
to reign with his Son.
No matter my purpose, or project, or job,
let your existence be enough for me.
Let it soothe my questions and worries,
my insecurities and doubts.
Let your love cast out all my fear.
Oh Abba,
neither here or there matter at all,
for all that's left is to be and to stay with you.
To know you is my greatest prize,
my true and one reward.
